Let's see, I've been practicing Wicca (my new religion) since April 12 2020, when everything was a mess (still is) for me. Looking back at the previous journal which I don't publish and don't intend to, I see no improvements at all. I'm still feeling shitty, despite my attempt to correct stuffs, a small part of it comes from my obsession over a guy. I don't blame him at all, just my stubbornness. Good thing now that he's annoyed at me, so there won't be much communication going on between us. Out of sight, out of mind, right? I need that. My health and self esteem are getting worse day by day. Do I intend to change that? I'm trying to. My only hope now would be that I don't fall back into that loop of opening up to him, get attached, get giggly and crushing all over him again. So I'm glad that he's not talking to me (really). He only tries to be friendly, and I have hoped for more. So what does Wicca has to with all of this? It's for me to have a fall back plan, whenever I'm despair